If I ever.

Right.
So I’m drilling the thought of not being sad into my head. It’s so annoying though really, it’s like….just put on a smile you muffin! THINGS WILL BE FINE IN A FEW MONTHS! Why can’t I just listen to myself?

God.Help.Please.

I think….

Okay, so here comes some sort of a religous post.

Lately, as we all know I’ve been going through a REALLY rough time. In my time of despair, I turned to my religion. I am a Christian, I’m not ashamed of it either. I’ve been praying heavily, asking for God to show me something, help me somehow.

Just today I was talking to a good friend of mine, Lindy. She was talking about some things and she brought up that she thinks that the most uncomfortable situations can make you learn so much. Just like how I’ve been in Canada, and I’m missing home so much and I immensely dislike it here. But, when you look at it made me learn to appreciate my parents so much more and to appreciate what I had and how good I had it.
I think this is God showing me that I’m learning, this is a process I needed to go through. Thank God!

Just a thought for now.

What have I done? I’ve come to this place where I feel my heart doesn’t belong.

Right.

So I haven’t written in a while. I have been dealing with lots of things, mainly my emotions.
This move has been hard. I’ve decided that during my last years of High School, this isn’t where I should be. I mean, I’ve tried it. I’ve got to get some sort of credit for that, but for school…I can’t do it. I can’t tell you how many times people have been like “Yes, you can. Stop telling yourself any different.” TBH, I really can’t. I’VE TRIED. Like, I would love to come back to Canada for college later, just cause you can’t really do proper college in Cayman. Right now, I belong in Cayman. In a smaller school, surrounded by people who know me and know what I’m like and laugh at my jokes. People who I can ramble on about Girls Aloud and Rachel Stevens to allllll day and they wouldn’t think any different of me. I want to go home. To think that a year ago, I would never ever say Cayman was my home…but…in all honesty, it is.

When I go back I wanna be a better friend. I want to listen more with my heart than my ears. I also want to be a better girlfriend, you know like actually go on adventures and put green dye in rich people’s hot tubs, and go to the beach and actually swim. Not be the stupid bitch sitting in the sun just watching. And to not forget, I want to be a better daughter. I wanna help around the house and spend more time with my parents. Not just use them for rides to a friends house or to the movies, or for money. I just wanna make them proud of me.

Obviously, being away has taught me alot. In some ways I can wish I never came, or thought about leaving Cayman. I can also be thankful, that I had the chance to get a reality check and learn a lesson.

Peace, Love & John Lennon.
Victoria.

Black & Gold.

Hello. ;]

So here’s an update on my life.
Oh woopdy-doo.

Right, so now I’m living in Canada. Yes. I’ve finally made the move.
I miss everyone, I really do. Some days it has been hard but I will grow to get used to it.
I’m living with my sister and her boyfriend and her boyfriend’s mother at the moment. Until we find out about an apartment.

I’ve been working on music. Really, almost every chance I’ve got, I’m becoming really focused on the things I want and need, I hope to continue to do so.

Tonight was awesome. It was like 1 in the morning and a couple of my sisters friends decided that they wanted to go skateboarding, I went along with them and it proved to be SO much fun.
And just a random thought to be thrown in the mix..The Saturdays are coming out with a new single soon (I think…) and it is called UP!. It is quite awesome! Upbeat and I would say is a good song to get ready for a night out to. Anyways, I will be starting my first semester at my new school on Tuesday. I’m really wuite nervous because it is alot bigger than the schools I’ve become used to whilst living in the Cayman Islands. Hopefully, I should be fine. Just takes a little getting used to.

I’ve learnt by being here that things (whatever the “thing” might be) that are apart of “change” will obviously take time to get used to. Sometimes, I just wish I were more patient.

That Black and Gold song by Sam Sparro…GENIUS! ..just thought I would mention.

It is 4:30am.
My sister is going to be getting me up to workout with her.
Better be off to bed. Night night.

Peace, Love and John Lennon.
Victoria L. S.

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Post #67….I am serious. O_o

Soooooo.
I actually don’t have anything worth writing to write but at the moment I am just about bored out of my mind.

This has officially been the most boring-est weekend of my whole life. ERGH! :[
Other than that. I got new shoelaces. Wow. Right? No.
Shant we rant?

• I'm bored.....I've already stated this.
• This one chick annoys the living shit outta me. She actually just signed on to MSN. =\
• I smelll really really really good.
• I'm listening to The Saturday's. :')
• I have a picture of David Beckham in his Armani undies on my bulletin board. 'Tis amazing. ;')
• I'm wearing shorts. Technically, there was no reason to write that. No one really cares, do they? no.
• I need to write new songs.
• I need inspiration.
• I'm now listening to S Club. Natural is truley amazing.
• RACHEL is amazing. :] Duhhhh
• I feel like dancing. =]
• I actually can you know.
• I was supposed to go to this hip-hop dance camp with Kennis Marquis.
• I don’t think he can make it to cayman anymore. =[
• I’m moving pretty soon.
• I should have some sort of Bon Voyage get together with movies and shizz… :’)
• I’m just about finished ranting about nothing-ness.
• Read some other posts of mine if you please.
• Peace, Love & John Lennon
• Victoria. <33

Post;post;post….post-iddy-post.

HIYAA!

So what’s been happening?
Well, on tuesday I went into town with my bestest friends BRE & NEIL!  We went around town and whatsuch. Thennnn we went and swam out to the floaty trampolinee. ‘Twas fun fo sho.
There is so much sorting out left to do in my room before I leave. ERGH! I hate it, with a divine passion.
I had cinnamon pancakes for breakfast this morning, it was good. =]
I learnt how to play Clocks by Coldplay and Can’t Speak French by GA!! on the guitar and I sang and errthanggg! :]

I miss him lots and lots. I really do! It’s becoming easier to kinda not though, just by keeping myself busy, but I still think about him all the time. =]

Music NEWWS! :]
The Saturday’s single is out on monday! YAY!

Today, when my mum got home there was this balloon from the arrangement of flowers we gave her on her graduation night and there was helium in it. So technically, I sucked in helium and talked like a martian with my mother. Kinda fun. FO SHO!

I found out on the weekend that this one person still liked me. I was actually kinda shocked. I can’t do anything about it. Sozz.

I got new glasses but I’m still trying to adjust to them, they aren’t the kinda glasses I would usually go for.

I think I’m done for now.

Peace, Love & John Lennon. <3
Victoria L. S.

I am.

a Lover.
a Fighter.
a Carer.
a Musician.
a lost soul.
a young human being.
a mistake maker.
a regretful person.
a tea drinker.
a coffee addict.
a cheesecake maker.
a person in love.
a avid Girls Aloud and Rachel Stevens fan. *just thought I would get that in there.*
a Canadian.
a Jamacian.
a Guyanese. *does that make sense?*
a person always trying to get the point across.
a brunette and sometimes a ginger.
a blogger.
a vlogger.
a idiot.

Oh, and John reminded me that I am also..:
a skater. ;]

“Let’s rock on time, it’s trickayyy!”

Allo. =]

Well, suddenly I’ve really gone on this whole I want to work out and tone my body binge. I don’t really know why but it’s just a goal I’ve set for myself that I really want to achieve. I’m also going to start getting up earlier and doing more things like writing and recording my music.

Just thought I would post quickly, I need to finish sorting through what I was sorting through in my room. ;]

Peace, Love & John Lennon <3
- Viki -

I’m about to hit and miss.

Last night I slept 14 hours. AHHH OVERSLEEPING!

Tonight I went and saw Wanted, I know I’m a bit late but who cares.
I thought it was presumably good. =] Angelina Jolie = AMAZING
I think it is safe to say she is my favourite actress.

Yesterday, I went on this floaty trampoline thing thing. It was quite wicked, then it started to rain really really really heavy, thunder and lightning too!
I absolutley love rain. When it rains it’s so much fun just to light candles, ahve a nice cup of tea and snuggle up listening to music. Lovely.

I’m really going to try to wake up earlier, I don’t like waking up late, I feel like I’m just wasting my day.

I just realized my wordpress thing, is on U.K time. Sorry.Random.

My cat keeps rubing her head all over the bloody keyboard! FFS!
I think I’m done for now.

Peace, Love & John Lennon